Brown Girl in London

Money money money

I get these moments, well more like long periods of stress, when I panic about the whole money issue and going to London. Actually, it's not so much going to London that creates this panic, I've always been like this. Sometimes I'll lay awake at night and run through debits and credits in my head. And trust me, it's not a fun thing. I'll curse myself many, many times for buying this or that or paying that bill when I should've waited until pay day and OSAP, oh my, how am I going to pay my OSAP?! Why did I go to school?! WHY? And tossing and turning ensues before I finally fall asleep and dream about sharks or work or computers.

So, of course this life move I'm planning is causing high-levels of stress. Like I'm almost at overload. I just spent the last 45 minutes creating a budget that goes day-by-day from now until April 30 - but I'm only at Feb 28. I still have to do March and April. But I need to know exactly what's happening with my money between now and then. Because then I worry I won't have enough. Or I'll have just enough. Or I'll get there and I'll love London and then I'll run out of money. And then I'll have to come back. And if I had only done this or that with my money it would have been all okay. And then I'm screwed.

I need a cup of tea.

posted by RC @ 8:34 PM